SpeakOut#18 - Spending time with Children with no Inhibitions! Part 2

And like we said, we came to M. G. M. Bethany Shanti Bhavan the next day!

Again, the children overwhelmed us by taking us into their home. All of us wondered how we could spend time with the children, whether it would be helping them out with some activity or playing games with them. What we found there however was a cultural program all prepared already by the children there and all we were asked to do is to sit and watch and be among them as they performed.

At that moment, I realised we call them 'differently abled'. It is not because their skills or abilities are a level lesser than anyone else's but because they have much different talents and skills from a normal person.

There were singers like nightingales among them! There were dancers who moved to the rhythm of music so beautifully where if we had tried we would have looked like crazy ducks dancing to the sight of water! There were state level volleyball and throwball players amongst them! We just couldn't cover their list of talents. They were great!

We talked to them and discussed about ourselves and they were so keen in making more friends. After executing the befriending task, they took us around their school showing different places where they are taught, what they do and can do. While most of us say do or learn what you have an interest for yet we learn the most usual and boring of things which is basically stuff that is taught from a syllabus at school. However, they were taught according to their skills and talents which they had and those which they could improve.

 We had a play time where we played throwball with them and they won ;) and also other games! It felt so good spending time doing the most innocent of things, playing like a child. It brought us back a gift we had felt long back and lost in the course of time.

While leaving, the children there were confused learning that we planned to leave at the end of the day. They concluded by their innocence that 'ofcourse they have to go home but they would be back here the next day, wouldn't they?'. None of us had the mind to break their heart so we said we would be back soon. Yet, the brightest and smallest of them all, Appu knew what was happening and she left us with her face swelling up due to the rush of feelings but she came back to see us again. When our bus started moving, she did shout a couple of times and when tears filled her again, she left running away.

Ofcourse, we knew this would happen from the way she was with us and binded with us from her visit at college. Yes, Appu was the star among the representatives who came to visit us the previous day. A couple of us left the bus and went back to the school with a huge pack of chocolates and found her at a corner sitting and not wanting to talk. The sisters called her and told to see who had come but she wouldnt wanna see anyone again who would  leave them so soon. But then when we called, she recognised the voices and came back bursting with a huge smile and we gave her the chocolates and told her to share it with her friends at school till the next time we returned. Her face was gleaming and it was a sweetening touch to a hard goodbye until next time.

And I would like to repeat again,

We met kids with no inhibitions; knowing only to love and share! Many moments of wonder, joy and care! Children with many talents who weren't afraid to show it! Giving away what they have to one another which made the world around them look so fair! 

God bless them :)

Poem#22 - Weird Love

to have everything
that makes you able to live so grand
yet behave like such is that state of life
as if 'har din life ka bajhe baand'*

to be bound by love
that makes everything else not matter
it can cause you to make the silliest thing be serious
and even crazier than the hatter

not just the love
that lovers share
but in every kind of friendship and relation
and never just that pair

the love that may
even never be seen
but right when the concern kicks in
you wonder, he/she cares? from when did he/she?

thats how weird
love can function
leaves you to decide when so perplexed
for questions that come across in life's junction

love changes it all
how people see
when even the rich feel so poor
while the opposite feels like a King or Queen

Note : *(made it sound politely enough for 'a kick in the ass')

Poem#8 - Mothers, The Angels!

Necessity could be
The mother of inventions
But the necessity of my inventions
Would be my mom

From the time I came
I kept no intentions
But to keep me best were her intentions
From my start so small

It wasn’t just for a single day
But for the whole of my life
That she sacrificed her whole life
For me to keep going happy on and on

She wanted me to keep so firm
Even when I didn’t know how to stand
A good job she’s done to have me stand
Is how she’s now taken me this way all along

I’ve grown and now
I see the plight that a mom takes
To see the turn that her child’s life takes
To grow and keep control

I salute them
And all the more adore
To see that its from how they adore
That the world has got the Love in it and grown!

Poem#7 - Love Confused (Cont'd)

it made him hurt all the more
when he tried to keep it quiet
it all just felt to him
that he could never be right

tears that he held within
n pain that tried to keep on hold
jus made that promise deep within
loosen up on its own

he knew he could never keep up with it
he then became strange.. it was soon
the cries and sadness that was all in him
made him into a loon!

words which had for her before
were of such that made him, himself spellbound
but now all that was left for him
made him all alone, fallen on the ground

the mouth of his that praised her alot
now said that he hated the thought
that he still loved her and not being able to convey
was the reason for the sadness he had brought

Poem#6 - Love Confused

chances he uses
power he drains
courage he picks up
but still he's frail

he loves her a lot
but still they're friends
he doesnt want to hurt her
so calls it as an unnecessary trend

the taunting he gets..
the poems he writes
her unknown companionship
jus makes his love ignite

but still with the part
that they're friends
he doesnt want to hurt her
and calls it as an unnecessary trend

she saw some of his lines
and asks to whom it were for
but he laughed it away, says they're made for fun
like taking some shells while sitting by the sea shore

but there was a time
where he couldnt take it anymore
the time came slowly
where he told who his love was for

the incident takes place
when she asked him without moving.. who he was behind..
he says it out..wen his pressure broke..
that she's the girl.. the one of a kind

she asks him what she had to say
but all he said was i dont know
and then it ended up as he expected
with a small and polite No

he continued, heartbroken
saying that he knew it all along
it had been his way of life
to suffer even after hopin and praying after all

she told him to shut up
n that there were still better girls left
then why did he have to
choose only her bereft

without giving an answer.. and his love for her still alive
for her and the still living frndship
he chose to keep it down
for all the comin while

he still loves her a lot
and still they're friends
but since he doesnt want to hurt her
he prays, for either his love or life to end..

Poem#3 - Fallen... in Love

its the thing of beauty that Keats talked about
but i speak of the living one
who brought me from darkness
from fear, from pain to the everwarming strong bright sun

how colorful can love be
it comes in red, blue and even white
how much of care can it give
the hugging and taking you from sorrowful past, to the best time it can give you tonight

i'd seen you before in childhood's grace
the innocence that was lit in your eyes
made the man i remember then, so grumpy and hated
all to a being, turned so nice

you showed me the truth, the secret, the power
that kept us up in our life
that it was love that made the world go round
so when hardships come never mind

you kept me away, from my heart to fade
my mind and soul from tear
just when i was there to fall in my tears
and have a weakened body so bare

you had me fallen, only for one certain thing
you made me fall... in love
the love that made rise though
rise high all time, but i dont know how

its all about this fall, that i think
and that i dont regret about
cause the fact that has me here today,
is that i live from you, for you, my love!

Poem#2 - Did it happen again?

i thought it was over
all gone and done
damn, its human nature
again, i've fallen in love

a small little girl
with her cute puppy eyes
with her smile, so sincere that brought me down
i, who was twice her height

is this actually love or affection
this case, how do i describe
these were feelings i never had before
they'll stay, but soon, she will go with time

im always so up and alive,
when im near her
that i was jumpy and warm, while she shivered,
in the chilly december

when my hands met with hers
it was a time, one of a kind
no, sparks didnt come and i didnt get zapped
but that was a time, i wsh would stay longer, or atleast again revived

is this actually love or affection
this case, how do i describe
these were feelings i never had before
they'll stay, but soon, she will go with time

i thank my age
but mourn about it too
cause it was that, that got me near her
but it keeps me away now, this short time was only how much God drew

all i know now is that
spending time with her, is what i love to have
but its too late, she's gone now, not dead & departed
but just home, to be with her mom and her dad

is this actually love or affection
this case, how do i describe
these are feelings i never had before
they stay, but damn, she's gone with time

Poem#1 - Wishes in the Rain

I was sitting with my books

I wasn't bothered about them

I was stuck in thoughts

in thoughts about you

I saw from the window

it was raining

it kept me wondering

whether it was your love I saw or God's caring

late in the night where the moon keeps its shine

I see you in it; also my cloud's silver line

out in the rain I want to be with you

wouldn't it be great, if it could be true!

but how can I know that you love me

after all you never gave me a yes

quietly you stood away

just making me anxious and worried

not knowing where you were

but it did give me the pleasant feeling

just like the rain drenching away...

my thirst yet which never quenches

when I got to see you and talk to you

I still wonder whether all the time

I give in for you, thinking about you, living for you

is worth the hope that one day

I'll have you by my side, when you'll be loving me too

just like waiting for the rain hoped for

to wash away my pain and...
bring forth my love.