SpeakOut#16 - The different way I went to attend an exam

My final semester University exams began on April 15th.

I won't be attending it this time though because I had an accident the same day it started.
I made a move so a car that came my way wouldn't hit me or a man walking aside wouldn't get hit. 

Both of them were safe. It gave me a head injury which wasn't massive.
Damage is inside. Skull crack and blood clot. Just abrasions on head and hand.

I got admitted to a hospital for 5 days through which I missed 3 papers.

The news spread fast and from the moment I was taken for treatment, my relatives and friends kept getting so many calls.
My parents were broken at the moment then. They're fine now. 

I brought a major shock to a lot of people. They kept telling me that.

My smile assured a lot of people that I would be fine. 

That's what got everyone along in between when I was shifted from hospitals after the accident.

I opened my eyes and I saw all my relatives and friends together and smiled at them and said Hi and asked how they were doing. It made them happy so they knew it wouldn't be all bad.

Everyone said I'm doing well because of a multitude of prayers.

It was only when I gained consciousness in the ICU that I realised what had happened completely.

Amma was all distraught when she was in Abu Dhabi. She reached here fine, thanks to our relatives and friends and her co-workers there. When she got to see me in ICU and saw me smile and identify her even when she was covered in mask, I believe She understood I'll be fine.
Appa was stuck in between the rush too but thanks to our relatives again, he did well too.

Hehe, all my friends and family kept telling my parents that too many good things kept happening to me so 'aarandu kannu vechatha'* (hehe) but yes, it hasn't gone critical due to God's grace and all the prayers which are still coming.

I was like some guy in some inspirational comedy movie when I woke up in the ICU realising what all happened and experiencing the after effects (hehe). I wish someone would have recorded all the things I remembered and I did in the ICU and stuff. It really made me and whoever heard me smile.

Because of all this, in the ICU I realised how precious my life is by not what it means to me what how it means to others I guess.

I understood my family and friends and teachers meant a lot to me when I remember how happy I was when I saw them during the shift from a hospital.

I remember I do have a spiritual self when I woke up in the ICU actually praying halfway and finishing it.

I understood although I'm scared of death, my death is of no meaning to me but it worries me only cos Ill miss everyone else.

And about my studies, well in a minute's matter I remembered I do have time but how much I will do later is not sure.

I know I want to speak more but some words are missing from my mind.

(I've been having some words forgotten from my usual usage ever since the accident. It will take time.)

I know my friends and family are my inspiration now.
These moments are rare and I feel that this was all meant to happen.
Thank God. Thanks to everyone's prayer and care. Keep doing it. :) I will too.

SpeakOut#15 - Back with a Rebrand

I'm making an attempt again to get back to blogging after the huge writer's block that put me down.

I moved my blog here as part of renewing myself. After all, it is a new year.

I'll be sharing experiences that I came across earlier but couldn't share in time.

Anyways, food for thought.

A while back, I was sharing an inspirational message written by my friend Obed from Philippines who is a young prodigy who voices his opinions for cultural excellence for the youth and his nation. I've mentioned him earlier in one of my posts.

Anyways, I shared his message among some groups online to give the inspiration I felt but what I received from one of the groups was a comment from a person that 'did I have only to share about some Filipino and  had I not heard about Gandhi and A. P. J. Kalam?'. This disappointed me because there I was trying to share something to give a thought and brighten one's evening and he foiled the initiative probably to prove what? His hypocrisy, maybe.

To inspire someone or share such a work doesn't need to be done by all the huge life figures we have always heard in life. It can be done by anybody who does a good work. Your family, friends and people around you. The chances are endless. Promote it.

P. S. Here's the link to Obed's message. <- Click

Poem#10- The Journey, Its Lesson

its raining, its cold
the wind surrounds me, but still i can feel the light
its the change thats coming, the change in seasons,
its still dark and cold, but i aint staying in fright

i dont declare that i'm great
nor try to persuade that i'm something more or less
all i need are your prayers, a great deal of them,
that i be by God and you, so blessed

i'm in a journey
where its fatigue i have and no sleep
because its revival i search for,
i'm commited for it, and that i'll reap

those demons of time,
who come and creep
so jobless, they want me down
but i've learned more, felt whats there down deep

i'm prepared, they can't do anything
they'll just try and have to whine,
because i've fought and will more,
its with even bigger trouble with which, i've dined

i can feel it getting warmer
do you think its becoming fine?
i know that i've travelled a lot and enough
but still i'm not sure, am i near the finish line?

its springtime now,
its done, now i'll be free
the time, the moment,
has come, most awaited by me

welcome, the sunshine says
and now i can last
for long with peace,
not being called again by my past

your prayers, my will
thats what brought me here,
you were the one, that made my will,
yes its true, dear

it was a hard time to learn, that all
what was needed was something forgetten in this world
something that needed to be followed by everyone,
but not jus preached by word

it is what, that i claim
that i have for her,
but has to be given,
to everyone, starting from my misunderstood brother

all i want now,
is that others see their spring too,
suffer less than i did,
but reach their destination, along with learning the truths

SpeakOut#14 - Kerala becoming the new work destination?

Sunday, June 3, 2012

I used to say always that Keralites would be the only people to inhabit their own land by majority and yet migrate to other lands and grow out whether in India or abroad for work and settlement.

I never thought there would be a day when my opinion would change. Alas! it has changed.

Wherever I go now, I notice people from outside the state. Although majority of the migrants are from the neighboring states which is not a new thing around the country, I for one person never thought it could happen. It must be the labour-starvation that made this happen, but even the white-collar job hunt is going on here from outside.

Even as I was having tea outside at a hotel this morning and brooding over this matter, two people next to me started to converse after having their food and I realised they were outsiders too.

Call it my weird Keralite pride! Somehow this has made me happy that people from outside come here to work. Plus, a lot of people here can start learning other languages and dealing with people from all kinds.

But now I wonder whether a day will come when Keralites will complain about their work being stolen here?

News I came across #2 - Zurker, a new SocialNetwork

Friday, May 11, 2012

So a few days back, I came across this site called Zurker which my friend referred me to.

It appears, this is the latest rival in the SocialNetwork field created by the twins from whom Mark Zuckerburg stole the idea of Facebook.

As Zurker is in beta test at the moment, you can only join on referral.
Want to checkout Zurker? then check my referral http://www.zurker.net/i-79306-jdjymwayun

What is great about Zurker is that it claims to make all new members shareholders of its site! YEP, you gain a share in this site when you're a member and you can grow them more by referring it to more people!

BUT I DONT BELIEVE ANY OF IT AND IT FAILED TO IMPRESS ME!

SpeakOut#13 - Bonding over a cup of coffee :)

Sunday, May 6, 2012

It may be at the movies. At the bowling center. A hangout at home or outside. At the usual cafe.
While shopping. Over a coffee. Over some pizza. During a ride. May be just a get together where you get back to your crazy self. And not to forget, chatting!

There is always a standard setup which gets you bond with a person anew. It also applies to get back with your friends to return you to your normal self from your stress filled day or to refill the gap when meeting after a really long time.

I've felt this is why we keep our hang-outs because they help you to be yourselves with your people and even relive your good times even when things dont feel like anything possible as such (only in the most drastic cases of one's life).

During high-school, my friends and I used to meet up at any of the usual cafes or at our friend's place.
During college, its been usually at the college canteen or at a shop near the ashram that runs our college or just at anyone's house.

You can open up about what you felt that day or during previous ones.
Make new friends and concrete the foundation on something you built new.
Laugh about memories and smile with them recovering from those that pinched you before.

Do you want to have a cup of coffee? :)

SpeakOut#12 - Always think before you judge?

Thursday, May 3, 2012

Always talking from your own experiences is the most authentic source perhaps for a person to convince others or teach others.

 I chose that method recently when I had to talk or express my ideas. In my last blog citing incidents at the airport, I pointed out about not passing me as one who is judgemental.

Why? It is so because all of us tend to judge others without giving a thorough thought. A day before leaving for U.A.E. last month, I was chilling with my friends after getting done with an exam and we get onto the topic of me leaving for holidays. A friend then joked teasingly saying 'so Alen returns to Abu Dhabi finally as a Man eh?' to which I replied 'Haha, yeah right. I was man enough when I had come here. What is it that you have done which I haven't man?'.
He gave me a reply which although didn't fit the topic gave me a thought as hard as a brick hitting my head. A thought which brought me back to earth.
He answered 'I felt the comfort of running tap water recently, have you?'


Everyday in his life, my friend had to draw water from the well till the bucket went full and carry it to his
house whether he needed it to drink or for something else; until recently when he installed a motor and could just open the tap to get water. It was a new thing in his life.

Such a feeling isn't known to most of us who blindly get anything with ease when we need it.


Although my question to him was not meant seriously in the slightest manner, it reminded me how we go on to judge about how others are, what they do, how we are better, how some people behave etc. but our conclusions aren't always true.

'To put yourself in another's shoe' is a phrase that we could profess than proceeding to judge someone.